A quiet moment!

I finally got a quiet moment. (oops spoke too soon just got the text ringer). Okay so back to quietness. All I hear is the fan going and the keys as I type this blog. Today has been a very rough day. Kolton was just into everything today. I do not know what his issue was but nothing was right for him. He never has days like this. Once nap time came he wouldn't even take a nap. All day it was one thing after another from throwing all his toys through out his room, throwing pillows off the couch, pouring out his elmo bath paint in my carpet, telling me he was gonna do something after I told him no, the list continues on forever. Finally I got my monkey to sleep. Then of course the phone started ringing about school. I am just thinking can't I just have a moment, just one moment to myself.

I love it at the end of the day no matter how rotten my monkey has been he still is so angelic when he is asleep! I enjoy these moments with him, whether they are when he is being bad or good. When I turned in my partying clothes for Mommy clothes, this was part of what some might call a sacrifice. I on the other hand call it my personal blessing from God. When my son was given to me with the medical problems and all he was perfect to and for me. God gave me my own little angel. I still wonder what would have happen to me if I did not have him. Would I have a degree? Would I be alive? Would I still be an alcoholic? The list continues.

At the end of the day I thank God for what I do have. It took me along time to become "okay" with being single. Since December I have learned to be happy as a single person and mother. It is amazing to me, that once I become happy with that, and happy with myself, how things can so quickly change. I am not going to jinx anything but all I have to say is the door is open to allowing a man that will be there for my son and myself.

So off of that, I am going to go ahead and end this one for the night. It is time to get back to my school work and eat me some molten lava cake with ice cream on top! Okay so not healthy but after the day that I have had, I think I deserve it!